Doubt is Real

Being a local team here in Fort McMurray, we are able to visit two Catholic high schools twice a week and we have the opportunity to build good solid relationships with the students and share our faith, love and enthusiasm for Jesus.

This brings me to one particular encounter I’ve recently had with a couple students: I was talking with two great girls at one of the high schools and we first started talking about what NET is, why we’re here, and what we’re doing. As we continued to talk, our conversation turned to talking more about the randomest things of life!  After a while of random fun chatting, she asked if she could ask me a more personal question. She asked me if I have ever doubted God. After that question, our conversation was able to go deeper.

She opened up about her faith and her doubts in God, and we were able to talk more deeply and openly about our faith - to share our own struggles and doubts in faith. It was a great and important conversation that we had - one that not many people are willing to talk about, especially in the schools. I’m sure those two girls aren’t the only ones that have those thoughts and doubts.

Some of us have had doubts, God so powerful, that God really seems like a childish fairy tale. Talking to God can seem as ridiculous as sitting on Santa's lap as an adult. Even if God was once near, doubt can make God seem more than just far away. But, that is when we need our faith to come in.

St. Augustine said, “Doubt is but another element of faith.”!

We know that humans have a natural predisposition to believe, to have faith in the supernatural. We all have this longing to believe in God, that God has intentionally written in our hearts.

“The desire for God is written in the human heart because man is created by God and for God; and God never ceases to draw man to himself. Only in God will he find the truth and happiness he never stops searching for.” - Catechism of the Catholic Church 27.

Doubt is something I’m sure we all have had at one point in our lives - just like myself, and those two girls. Some have had stronger doubts than others, but we have all had doubts in some capacity or another. That is when we need to ask God for an increase of faith. In the Gospel of Luke, the apostles come to Jesus and ask Him for an increase of faith.

What Jesus says back to the apostles, is this: “If you had faith like a mustard seed, you would say to this mulberry tree, ‘Be uprooted and be planted in the sea’; and it would obey you.” Luke 17:6

Faith like a mustard seed... A mustard seed is approximately the size of a pencil point, but Jesus says this is enough. This little, tiny, tiny seed of faith is all that we need, and God will supply the rest.  He will increase your faith, and let it grow stronger if you allow Him and invite Him to water it!  I would encourage and challenge you to think about where you are at in terms of faith. Are you asking the Lord to increase your faith in times of doubt?

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Victoria Bredfeldt is a current NET missionary serving on Team 4 in Fort McMurray, AB